Why?

A tear forms in my eyes,

I can't believe it's true,

Of how soon she left us,

Without even giving us a clue.

I don't think I've heard it right.

Could I be calm,

When my friend says, "She's dead"?

The phone slips from my hand,

Tears rush down my face,

Along with fearful cries.

I wonder how it happened,

I wonder why it did?

I wonder why it had to be her?

I sit here in total shock,

The world loses its meaning for me,

Oh! Why did it happen to her?

I think of how I had become,

So busy in life,

I did not even spare,

enough time for her.

I know that she wont come back,

But my heart will not stay still,

It pains and cries "Oh! Why?"

Self Destruction !

She planted walls in herself,
& promised not to let anyone get through it.
Inside her where no one is capable of seeing,
How fragile and vulnerable she can be ;
Became a cold monster wherein she reigns,
No one could dictate her what to do.

She became completely numb & oblivious,
To what other people might think
B'coz she is done letting herself,
Be pained & stabbed with a thousand of needles in her dark heart.

She once had a caring heart,
Yet she pretends she doesnt have one.
Shes scared that one day,
Her walls would also be her destruction;
Her sweetest downfall.

Rapid Phases

In a world so slow,
Yet rapidly changing faces on each phases,
Negatives be eliminated,
So that positive thinking will follow;
Be authentic instead of being a hypocrite fellow;
Appreciate beauty with love,
Than lust to a party when in love;
Communicate better with tools,
To say at least,
When in person, we are good;

All the nicest things just die down,
But surely will last when liked.