I had never known the middle !

The allure of madness, 
the illusion of sheer brilliance weaved around disarray as a way of life
Was all that I had idolized.
From one tragic love story to the next
I was collecting heartbreak and personal awakenings like flowers.

Except, my sunny days were tearful nights
And sleepless hours counted with cigarettes
Strewn amidst half hearted resolutions
And poetry that told me
I was special I loved it
I loved the rush of each new beginning
And I knew the horror of the endings
But I had never known the middle !!!

For life was short
And middle takes time
But time was running out.
I met you and I wouldn’t say
That lightning struck or stars were brighter
Because they weren’t
For the first time
Stars shone as they should
The World was still moving
And life as I knew it did not change

For the first time
I was at the beginning
And somehow, there was a middle
It was happening to me
With no end in sight I asked you,
and you said
You would take a light drizzle over a storm
That made no sense to me
I said "We wouldn’t last long,
The end was near"
You just said "There’s still time.
I no longer collect heartbreak"

In fact, I no longer want to think of myself as someone
Whose mornings are new beginnings
And nights – some kind of rebirth
This is my middle
And it’s beautiful..
The sun and the moon ascend each day
And I still go on

For chaos spread evenly over a long, long time
Is what the middle should be
And that’s how the planets were built, cities, monuments & human history
Because love only feels like chaos when we count the days

And I’ve stopped counting, with you
There’s still time,
There always will be
For time doesn’t exist.

I Stopped Miles Ago

Burn it downn
Let the smoke and everything,
You hold cimb out the windows.

Start with an empty heart,
I already cut the anchor loose.
Look where else you can be,

We'll have radios in hand,
We'll be in touch;
But I can't sail by your side.
Spring blooms elsewhere,
Be free !
Let me rise among the constellations,
The chase is over - I stopped miles ago !!

Hope - Have it, Own it & Share it.

Wounds stop bleeding & turn into a scar. Pain stops scream. Hope promise's of healing.

Sound of the footsteps as you head your home, flame inside the chest keeping you warm when fear holds you with cold. A moment when you feel you aren't getting anywhere.

A wide space where you wish you could improve. A way your parents would say they are proud. A way your lover says how much he loves you. The way you hold on when your shoulder aches because of the weight. The way you look for the other door that you wish would open each time one slammed on your face. The little voice asking you to try again, keep going and holding on until you get there. It keeps telling us that we'll get there.

A brand new color to your eyes after the tears are wiped off and you sleep the whole night over the sorrows & regrets. A melody you feel as you talk about your dreams and how you would hold onto it someday. A strength which boosts up your bones each time you stumble and fall for each obstacle you face.

A direction to take, A courage to leap; that's what hope is supposed to be.